Upward

On this beautiful spring evening I needed to silence the noise around me. I opened the door to my truck and was greeted by the cool spring breeze as my eyes laid rest on the most beautiful little girls grave, my own daughters. I hadn’t visited her since winter left and her wreathe still hung surprisingly full of needles and greenery. I’m writing this as I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one out there who needs a gentle reminder that God is good and to #celebrateeverything. 

Every time I lay my head on her headstone I’m reminded of our journey. I’m reminded of the brutal-ness, the beautiful-ness and how both of these feelings filled my every single day. I fought so hard to choose joy and what’s different today? Why has that fight left and daily I’m ok with settling for mediocrity? I get lost in the grumbling, in the complaining and the whining. Life is more and the people around me deserve more, deserve better. I needed a hard reset and I found it here with my daughter, near her grave. Reflecting back and looking upward. How can my past propel me forward? 

I laid, looking up at the blue sky, strung with all sorts of cloud formations that were swirling by; A reminder of how fast life goes! How am I doing with the few seconds I have here on this earth? Amongst the fallen limbs and scattered branches in the cemetery, a sign of the harshness of winter, spring was trying to burst through. It was a great reminder to look upward. It was a great reminder about the refreshing, the reinvigorating, and the renewal that's not only something that we can get from spring time but something that we can have every day, no matter the season, from a loving Savior. 

I’ve been caught up in the rush of life. Forgetting the foundational basics to trust God, have faith, give thanks, pray always and CHOOSE JOY! Don’t let life suck it out of you. It wants to in every way, fight for your day, before you blink, life changes. 

Praying for you as I pray for myself "that we would throw away our laziness, coldness or whatever is interfering with our pure love for Christ. Make him the source and the center, and the One who encompasses every delight of our souls. Refuse to be satisfied any longer with our meager accomplishments. Aspire to a higher, a nobler, and a fuller life. Upward to heaven! Nearer to God!" -Charles H. Spurgeon